So last night I was in the shower shampooing my hair, shaving my legs, and all the other girl things we do and started sneezing! I sneezed approximately 196 times (give or take a few). Tonight I was able to shower, without sneezing, and had time to reflect.
Two years ago I was a mess...I wouldn't have been friends with myself, but somehow Gracie became a very good close friend to me. Even though I was angry about my divorce and situation in life, we still became close friends. She was even stubborn enough to talk to me first after our falling out. The Nurse, a close friend since high school, was going through the same things I was about the same time (divorce, moving in with her mother) and somehow we are friends again. The Gay Husband, can't say enough about him because he's always been there for me, no matter what. I am so fortunate to be surrounded by stubborn, wonderful, kick my ass when I need it friends. They are flat out awesome!
Still, I was angry. I was stuck with the beetle that was breaking down on the highway and dumping gas everywhere quite frankly the damn thing was a fire hazard, totally broke, and in a job that made me want to scream. I took the leap, not thinking that I would get hired but I spoke positively about my 20:3 odds saying "They haven't called me back yet, I'm just waiting for them to tell me when to start" and finally, they did! So today, I am in my first big girl job post graduation finally making the money that will allow me to not have to live paycheck to paycheck, surrounded by people that are loving and caring, and so supported and encouraged in the training process it's almost like a dream! Yeah, I admit I bitch and complain about the small stuff, but in retrospect I'm pretty freaking happy! It's almost surreal how much calmer I feel about life. I'm in no rush to date or pair off, no rush to get to work anymore, life is good!
I surely can't guarantee I'll always feel this way about being an Investigator, I have no doubt I'll see gnarly stuff and some days not be so excited about work. For today though I'm going to be happy.
The Beav
Life has a funny way of working itself out when you have a strong net of support to catch you right before you face plant the asphalt of life. You were there for me when I was in a full on face-skid and I believe our fall out was needed to make us the more tolerant friends we are today for each other. I love you more today for all your determination and good sense not to keep bitching at me when I believed it was time to rebuild the bridge.
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